Stepping Out and Stepping In: Optimistic About What is to Come. An article by SOCSI PhD student Luret Lar

Luret Lar, a third-year PhD researcher in the School of Social Sciences at Cardiff University, wrote a personal essay for the inaugural issue of the Unblock Magazine, which focused on Black women in academia: Challenges, collaborations, and communities, and included interviews, essays, and book reviews from other contributors. Luret’s article, titled Stepping Out and Stepping In: Optimistic About What is to Come, narrates her experience as the recipient of an internationally competitive scholarship. In Luret’s words, “Life often unfolds in unexpected ways. “As she went about her daily routine in Nigeria which included teaching undergraduate medical students, training postgraduate students in the principles and practices of Community Medicine and Public Health, providing consultations to caregivers of children aged under five years in immunization clinics and conducting local, regional and global research with vulnerable groups, something felt missing: an unexplained urge to seek deeper meaning and understanding. Having qualified as a medical doctor with a speciality in Public Health and Community Medicine, Luret was progressing in her teaching, research, clinical consultation and community service roles. Despite diligently fulfilling her professional responsibilities, an inner voice kept nudging Luret to explore opportunities beyond her immediate surroundings.

One day, while browsing the internet, Luret discovered a funded studentship at Cardiff University. The eligibility criteria seemed almost intimidating. To quote Luret’s words, “Could I really stand a chance?” Yet, a spark of hope ignited whenever certain phrases in the application resonated with her. According to Luret, “At least, I can try.” The application process was intense, demanding meticulous paperwork and perseverance. When she finally received the interview invitation, excitement mingled with anxiety.  The interview felt like the quickest 30 minutes of her life. The interviewers complimented her research proposal, which lifted Luret’s spirit, but doubt still lingered quietly in the background.

Then came the waiting. According to her, “The harder I tried to push thoughts of the outcome away, the more they resurfaced. “Finally, the moment arrived, and Luret was selected. Leaving everything behind for a new and uncertain future brought a complex blend of emotions. It meant unlearning old patterns and embracing new perspectives. This bold but risky career transition came with its own set of challenges. However, looking back over the past three years, Luret says, “time has flown by, and I smile through every challenge I’ve faced.” To all current and prospective international scholars, as Luret expresses it, “meritocracy exists! Do not be discouraged by the paperwork or the competition. Believe in yourself, even if doubt creeps in.” The support Luret received from Cardiff University, her funders, the Welsh Graduate School of Social Sciences, the Economic and Social Research Council, supervisors, and Luret’s progress reviewer has been immense.  In Luret’s words, “Their generosity, knowledge, and experience have enriched my academic journey in countless ways.”

One lesson Luret holds dear is that “criticism is not a setback but an opportunity for growth, a vital part of learning.” As she nears the conclusion of this incredible chapter, Luret looks toward the future with hope and confidence. I am leaving a stronger, more capable version of myself. Luret’s next step is to continue to persevere, stay resilient, and keep doors open, allowing this experience to guide her forward.